Friday, April 17, 2009

This is Carmen when she was three years old.
I know a lot of people wonder why a little girl would have to go through so much. I would like all of you to know I asked Carmen a few different times if she wished this had never happened to her and each time she said no. She appreciated the good things that came out of this. Some of them are: getting to spend a lot of time with me, seeing the love her friends had for her, and feeling God's presence with her non-stop. I know that the purpose of this life for all of us is to be tested to see if we will choose good or bad. Some of God's spirits do not need to be tested as long as others. Carmen was tested for long enough and was ready to move on to the next step. I can tell you for certain that there is life after death. Carmen was visited by angels towards the end of her life. The last few days of her life she would be moving her lips and carrying on conversations with people we could not see, but she would be looking right at them. The few words we caught were, "no, I'm not ready" or "maybe tomorrow" or "where did your friends go" or, "why do you have white feet". I am sharing these very tender memories with you. I hope you understand and don't think I am crazy. I know that this is for real.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

This is Carmen with her Grandma Galbraith.
This week has been a hard week for me. We found out that my son Vincent has pneumonia, he did not have too severe of a case, but it reminded me again how precious life is. I have been thinking a lot about Carmen and missing her this week. As time goes on it is easy to start wondering if I did enough. I love her.
I would like you to know that I am speaking at the Luminaria Ceremony for Relay for Life. It is on June 13 at 9:00 P.M.
I would like you to know also that my nephew, Chase, is doing an Eagle Scout project for the Family House in San Francisco, and if you would like to donate anything just email me.