This is Carmen and her crazy brother James. This is in March of 2008. Carmen was still undergoing chemotherapy at the time.
This has been a hard week. My girl is slowly drifting away from me, and I feel like I am not giving my boys the time with me they need. Carmen never made it downstairs again. Now if I shift her body even a little bit, it puts her in major pain. She can't see much of anything, and for her to hear you, you almost have to yell. She no longer does stickers or anything else. It is hard for me to leave her side, because she says maybe four sentences a day and I want to be there to hear them. She is not eating and drinks very little. The good things are, that she is peaceful and does not seemed bothered by her limitations at all, and she is happy as long as I am in her room with her. Even though all this has happened in a very short amount of time, Reed and I still feel the peace that comes through the Spirit. Thank you for your continuous prayers. I know Carmen is being watched over by angels, and they will help her through her days ahead. I also know that Carmen is very special and being called Home at her young age for a special purpose. Our roles will soon be reversed and she will be the one guiding me and helping me make good decisions, so that I can see her and be with her again. I love her very much, and miss her conversation and her smiles already.
As I said earlier, one of the hardest things about this for me is that I feel like I cannot give my boys the attention they deserve, so thank you to all of you that have spent time with them. I know I would be a mess if it weren't for all of you. All of the dinners have been delicious. Thank you to all of you that have come and made Carmen feel special too. Visitors are still welcome.